I met with Lesley on Sunday for what was supposed to be brunch. Currently living where we are, I couldn't for the life of me get a taxi or a Grab (the Singapore Uber), because we live too far out. Moreover, the price of a Grabcar to get me into town was $30 and I … Continue reading Beauty in Destruction
Routine Screening I went back for my gynaecologist check up on Monday - 6 weeks after miscarrying our triplets. Dr. Thia recommended a Pap since I had CIN 1 a couple years ago. He wanted to make sure that it's still being kept at bay. They're also going to check for HPV. Keeping my fingers … Continue reading 6 Week Update.
I was listening to Maroon 5's latest single 'Memories' and some of the verses made me think of our little ones. There's a time that I remember, when I did not know no pain When I believed in forever, and everything would stay the same Now my heart feel like December when somebody say your … Continue reading Memories Bring Back You.
The Italy series have finally come to a close. I wrote most of my Italy posts back to back over a week or two in order to keep my mind occupied. Since then, I have been doing a few other things. For one, I mentioned in my post 'Love and Loss' about a little something … Continue reading Seeking the Rainbow
The struggle to not keep looking back is real. A few night ago, I laid in bed crying inconsolably over our babies once again. I cried because I had convinced myself in that moment that I was the reason they are no longer here. Perhaps I could have done more. Only I was to blame. … Continue reading Steps Forward.
I woke up this morning and in minutes, had tears spilling down my cheeks as I laid in bed, body still aching from last week's ordeal. A couple days ago, I felt that I wanted to do something positive in memory of the babies we'd lost. So I started the ball rolling, and perhaps, if … Continue reading Love and Loss.
I was meant to continue with my Italy journals, but I cannot pretend that this didn't just happen. I cannot continue writing those entries as though unaffected. So here it is, the hardest blog entry I hope to ever write. A few months ago, I blogged about Flo and I finally conceiving. We were beyond … Continue reading The Hardest Post I Hope to Ever Write.