Routine Screening I went back for my gynaecologist check up on Monday - 6 weeks after miscarrying our triplets. Dr. Thia recommended a Pap since I had CIN 1 a couple years ago. He wanted to make sure that it's still being kept at bay. They're also going to check for HPV. Keeping my fingers … Continue reading 6 Week Update.
The struggle to not keep looking back is real. A few night ago, I laid in bed crying inconsolably over our babies once again. I cried because I had convinced myself in that moment that I was the reason they are no longer here. Perhaps I could have done more. Only I was to blame. … Continue reading Steps Forward.
I woke up this morning and in minutes, had tears spilling down my cheeks as I laid in bed, body still aching from last week's ordeal. A couple days ago, I felt that I wanted to do something positive in memory of the babies we'd lost. So I started the ball rolling, and perhaps, if … Continue reading Love and Loss.
I was meant to continue with my Italy journals, but I cannot pretend that this didn't just happen. I cannot continue writing those entries as though unaffected. So here it is, the hardest blog entry I hope to ever write. A few months ago, I blogged about Flo and I finally conceiving. We were beyond … Continue reading The Hardest Post I Hope to Ever Write.
9 March 2019, I started round two of SO-IUI at KKH. This time, I was put on Puregon which was a lot easier to inject than Menopur since I didn't have to withdraw the solution manually. Everything was in a pen and I just had to set it to the amount I was prescribed, and … Continue reading Part Three. Three’s Not a Crowd.
Written 18 April 2019. I've shared before about my struggle with infertility and even before Flo and I were married, we thought we'd try and if we managed to conceive before we tied the knot, we would be happy. We went for all the tests, and then we got married. Still, we weren't able to … Continue reading Part Two. SO it begins.
This post was written on 4 December 2018. I didn't want to publish it because I wasn't ready yet. Now seems like the right time because it's the first part of the journey I am now on with Flo. There will be three parts to this, with the other two parts being published by end … Continue reading Part One. Infertility: Our Journey So Far.
Since the 11th of Feb, when my world suddenly seemed bleak for a moment, I feel a world away to how things felt to be only a month back. Funny how a single month can change so many things. Right now, I feel like I've found my centre. That's not to say I wasn't happy … Continue reading Cooking with Love.
The last couple of weeks have been trying. Going forwards and backwards, backwards and forwards for so many years is frustrating not just for my loved ones, but for myself. A decade ago, I imagined I'd be ED-free by now. It was always a case of procrastination to start proper recovery 'tomorrow' with a series … Continue reading The Battle Continues.
I've been putting off writing about this topic because it's so heavy and well, it's hard. As my friends and I are now entering our 30s, there are those already with children and happy, others who are just starting to pop them out, and some who are struggling with fertility. The answer appears simple right? … Continue reading (In)Fertility.