The struggle to not keep looking back is real. A few night ago, I laid in bed crying inconsolably over our babies once again. I cried because I had convinced myself in that moment that I was the reason they are no longer here. Perhaps I could have done more. Only I was to blame. … Continue reading Steps Forward.
13 Jul 2019 - Sat. First thing in the morning, we had a quick breakfast and bid Gianna a heartfelt goodbye. We left the beautiful town of Modena and headed back North to Lignano where we were to meet with family. With all the bad traffic due to the beginning of summer holidays, Florian and … Continue reading From Lignano to Chianti, Italy
12 Aug 2019. Friday. This was the dinner Flo and I had been looking for since we managed to score reservations back in June. It was a crazy fight to get a table because their online booking system meant that queueing was virtually inevitable. What was frustrating though was that it kept jumping us back … Continue reading Osteria Francescana, Modena.
I was meant to continue with my Italy journals, but I cannot pretend that this didn't just happen. I cannot continue writing those entries as though unaffected. So here it is, the hardest blog entry I hope to ever write. A few months ago, I blogged about Flo and I finally conceiving. We were beyond … Continue reading The Hardest Post I Hope to Ever Write.
In early April, we fostered our second dog, Truffles. He was only a puppy - a tiny, skinny, timid little thing that we couldn't go near to for a few days. It took about a month to get him out of his shell, and to trust us wholly. Florian and I expected him to be … Continue reading Bittersweet Goodbyes.
Dad's birthday was on 11 June. The day before, I thought to treat him and Mum to lunch at Cherry Garden, Mandarin Oriental, after our 13 week scan. Dad isn't big on celebrating his own birthday and doesn't like the whole cake and candle surprise business, so I knew a nice meal would make his … Continue reading Cherry Garden, Mandarin Oriental. & Folklore, Destination Hotel.
9 March 2019, I started round two of SO-IUI at KKH. This time, I was put on Puregon which was a lot easier to inject than Menopur since I didn't have to withdraw the solution manually. Everything was in a pen and I just had to set it to the amount I was prescribed, and … Continue reading Part Three. Three’s Not a Crowd.