Bohol.

It’s our third day in Panglao, Bohol, The Philippines! It started off a little rough because, you know, ED stuff… But I decided that I have to let go sooner or later. I don’t know how far I will go before Fear overcomes Strength and Determination but neither do I think I need to think…

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Food Pho Life.

I’ve been wondering quite a lot about a few things. The usual things. Usual-for-me things. My brain has recently been shouting at me to Wake UP! And I can hear myself fighting back even as ED tried to bring me down. Yesterday, I thought to myself: Why am I still engaging in such disordered eating…

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One of Those Days.

Throwback to Friday: Just one of those days where everything feels meh. It started off raining and raining and raining and stopped around lunch time but the skies have been quite dreary since, aptly reflecting my mood. That said, I’m quite glad that I managed to pull myself together and get my tasks done for…

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This is Me.

I’m sitting here waiting for the rain to stop wondering if I want to pick up a couple things from the supermarket today, or wait for tomorrow. If I go today, I get it out of the way and I can concentrate on doing prep work for one of my cake orders. If I do…

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The Bigger Picture.

As I sit here mulling over this morning when Flo weighed me and told me with a look of disappointment that my weight had not shifted at all since last week, making it 2 weeks of stagnation and zero progress in weight gain, it just blows my mind how fear can feel so much bigger than…

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Enough.

I read a nice article yesterday on Facebook about how its writer beat her battle with an eating disorder and what turning 30 means to her this year. I guess I’ve read enough articles to know what I should and shouldn’t do, and how life springs forth the minute we let go of the ED. The…

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